I fell in love with a trucker seven years ago. I know that was my first mistake but sometimes the heart over rules the brain. I met him online and we talk for about a month on there before I met him personally. He was in training to be a truck driver and was leaving for 30 days so we decided before he left we would meet. We decided that he was to give me a t-shirt to wear whole he was gone and I gave him a little stuffed money. I know no one wants to hear thhe whole story so I will not put it all here. We had a very good relationship for a couple of years he only came home every 3 weeks and we always saw each other when he did and talk on the phone or IMed each other when he was gone.
Well I will get to the reason for this blog. Really it for me to get out what I am feeling.
I think being gone and the internet is where we went wrong he had the ability to find other women in other places and I think he started to enjoy his new life of having other women that it changed the nice man I met into a man whore.
A couple of years ago one of the women he was seeing that I knew nothing about contacted me on Tagged a site we were all on. Let me know in detail things they would do together and to top it off she was a truck driver. Any way I was so in love I couldnt stop seeing him, and I tried hard. But the thought of never seeing him again made me so sick I couldnt function.
Well two days before this past Christmas he was going to come see me. When I got off work I called to find out what time and he said he wasnt going to make it. Well this was happening a lot lately. So I finally told him I was done. Well I think I convinced him now I just cant convince myself. If anyone reads this and can help let me know.
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